'My heart will go on.....'
My heart skipped a beat as I read the sms from Raj...
sms said..
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Date- 1 jan 2010
Time- 00:30 Hrs
Rina,I guess lets END it now..
Had a nice time meeting you..
Happy new year..
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Though I was expecting this after all that had happened between us
in these last weeks..But now we had OFFICIALLY borken up..it was so
damn sad to face it..Life suddenly looked blank..I mean, RAJ, he was my life for such a long time..Half my time i used to spend with him..It was like something BIG has gone out of my life..My mind then said 'What next then ?' with tears started flowing as I couldnot control my emotions further....!!!
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July 2009..
Raj, OFFICIALLY proposed me..We were like such good friends..So we thought
that why dont we live for each other..These were the days when I just could not
keep my feet on ground..I was on some other plane..some other world..Love was all
around..We used to know EVERYTHING about each other..We used to care..We used to share..We were there to wipe off each others tears..We met so so often..He used to skip his classes and I used to bunk mine, just to spend some time together..Life looked beautiful,complete and divine..I had everything..everything..
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September 2009..
Rina,Raj..Made for each other..We used to think about Marriage and stuff..We used to make plans for making it BIG..Our conversations on phones did affect out respective studies..We just could not concentrate on studies without talking to each other..I used to become restless if there was no reply from him even for more than five minutes..i just could not think of loosing him..For me he was my everything..my joys,my tears,my life..
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Novemeber 2009..
Relationship started EXPECTING somethings..I started feeling SAD whenever he did not show up when I was down and out..I mean how could he just forget MY worries ?..we no longer could take time out for each other..Or maybe we were SO USED to each other that we started taking things for GRANTED..The relationship no longer had that
SWEETNESS,VIGOUR and JOY..It was like in a sleepy mode..Less talks,less gifts,less 'i love you's...
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December 2009..
More fights,more EXPECTATIONS..more possesiveness..We no longer told each other EVERYTHING..Our relationship demaned MORE TIME and MORE SPACE..personal space..We used to have fights over each others non-mutual friends..We started putting conditions on each other..Frustrations,worries and pressure were very high..We just wanted some 'change' but still feared to 'part ways'..Finally we talked..talked all possibilities and decided that we will let each other know what we feel about this relationship...
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January 2010..
For the first time after so many months life looked empty,blank..Nothing to do..I started giving more time to my family and my friends..I even realised that I just neglected them during these months..Maybe it was the flow of this love, or
maybe it was 'young love' that drove me with it..I used to cry everyday (alone), thinking about Raj,the times we spent with each other..I just could not see a way out ..How will i survive further??...Will I ever be able to become
that 'happy Rina' again ??? And if yes, how ?? As for Raj is concerned , we obviously did not talk much but we were still in touch.,, we changed our ways whenever we saw each other..In short 'neglected' each other..
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March 2010..
I was still hanging over that relationship..Though obviously i was now 'used to' this separation..I still just went blank talking to my friends thinking about those days..I wanted help, though i never cried for it..I needed him,i wanted him..But i guess i had realised that now he will never come back..Even the tears had dried
up as I did not cry further about watching those gifts,those cards,those letters,remembering those dayss....!!
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May 2010..
New people walked in my life..They were sweet,very sweet..With them I even forgot Raj because there were no talks about RAJ anymore..I enjoyed their company..Slowly and slowly their presence did take over my feelings for Raj..I started getting more connected to them..Spent hours with them on stretch..I smiled..I Laughed..I finally started LIVING life rather than SURVIVING life..
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July 2010..
A 'special' friend..Ermm..He proposed me ..I told him about Raj and me and my hesitancy to get into relationship..Then even he was ready to wait..I felt IMPORTANT..SPECIAL..Somebody actually LOVED me..CARED for me..Finally at the end of this month I accepted the proposal............
LOVE WAS BACK AGAIN AND SO WAS MY LIFE
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For all the people who feel that 'love' and 'relationship' is not their cup of tea..My suggestion..Please wait ..If you dont want to bump into LOVE, love will DEFINITELY bump into you..If not today then tomorrow..
My thoughts..LOVE WILL FIND A WAY
Life is beautiful...Enjoy !!!
Written in assosciation with AADHAR GARG
BRCA: Institute of Indian Technology
5 months ago
12 comments:
really a lovely,hearttouching story... with all the common problems.thanks for showing how optimistic lyf can be ?
but i thought the end could have been more charming one !!!!!
expecting more love fiction blogs .... with love ACS c=chill ;)
Now I have a reason to feel that my love too will find a way :P
Carry on ........
Snehil
Interface of the story was awesome!! With timeline and uppercaps :)
Liked your blog ankur...quite relevant.
@ himanshu..
Well thanks for the comment..it feels good when such GREAT writers comment on this chhota mota blog ;)
@ snehil and acs..
thanks for the comment..
beautiful...particularly the way it was described by you... pretty realistic...
great style of writin,the use of caps in particular
life moves on.... n love n happiness both find ways to enter into our life and make it more beautiful.....keep writin such cool stuff..really enjoyed readin this one
Simple yet a special story (though am not sure whether its out of your creative mind ..or out of your surrounding) ...
As always good work !! .. :)
The best thing i appreciate about this post is that you wrote it from a point of view of a girl. That's really nice. May be its easy for writers, but for a beginner (I hope you don't mind me calling you so) I guess its tough.
"I used to become restless if there was no reply from him even for more than five minutes.."
Guys don't think that way I guess.
They surely can wait for more than 5 minutes.
What I think is that emotions in guys are like waves.
Extremes exist.
But girls definitely have a monotone.
That's what I noticed Ankur might have not even thought of(please correct me if you did), but he surely wrote it that way.
Well, I haven't liked someone so much, so I may be wrong as well in my above theory.
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"Less talks,less gifts,less 'i love you's "
Less Talks
Talks may tend to reduce for sure.
By time, you always start taking things for granted.
Less gifts
I don't blame Raj. :D
Less 'I love You's
Is it that easy to say 'I love You'.
Well I don't think so.
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"more EXPECTATIONS"
You expect more from someone when you yourself are giving in far too much.
It can never be so that both expect too much and yet they don't fulfill each others needs.
Expectations is just a pseudo vision I guess.
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"I even realised that I just neglected them during these months"
Well, this was bound to happen. This is the best example that your priorities reorder themselves as time progresses.
Hence less 'I love you's
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"Even the tears had dried"
That's the best thing I like about humans.
Time definitely makes us forget the past. There are always blurred images in our mind.
But the fog thickens more and more.
Exited I am about the end of this post, as I am writing this comment simultaneously.
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"Finally at the end of this month I accepted the proposal"
Happy ending. :)
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"For all the people who feel that 'love' and 'relationship' is not their cup of tea..My suggestion..Please wait ..If you dont want to bump into LOVE, love will DEFINITELY bump into you..If not today then tomorrow..
My thoughts..LOVE WILL FIND A WAY"
I hope it does. :P
But I think I am still happy without one.
May be Ankur knows this better than me.
I wish he does.
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P.S.
I really liked this post man.
That's why I wrote this comment simultaneously while reading , so I don't miss a singe point I wish to share.
:)
You rock man. Great job
Well if you ask me,its NOT even love.. I mean in both the cases.. True love only increases with the passage of time.. Cuz you tend to understand the inner being of your partner.. the bond only strengthens.. These are just mood swings.. You cant just judge it in a period of just a "few" months.. takes years i suppose!
Plus.. when you are going through a low phase in your life.. (not necessarily.. a broken heart/relationship.. but anything.. professional life.. financial status.. acads.. family prob.. health.. etc etc..) and theres someone who cares,understands,helps(and says they love you) etc etc.. you tend to blieve its LOVE.. but this is what defines TRUE friendship.. but regarding the perfect partner.. I AM NOT SURE! obviously your partner has to be your best friend, but here you need to take into consideration a thousand and one other factors.. Its easy to get swayed away when you are going a downhill in your life.. Its something that only the one who has faced it can understand.. :( :( :(
But these are JUST my views! Surely many wont agree!
You might as well delete my comment!
No offences!
Cheers!
Ira
ira..thanks for ur comment..i appreciate ur point of view..u r right in what u r saying..and i tottally respect that..very chill with me..
see i did not write this post to tell what is love ..how much time it takes..etc..but i am trying to tell that love can come again in life..
but still i accept ur point and thanks for ur comment..
@tarun..dear i will discuss points with you when we meet..!!
Waiting for the so-called "discussion" between you two ..... Ankur and Tarun. I am sure there wont be any conclusion for at least 24 hours. I would be happy to be a patient listener for a few hours in between.
:)
vo last scene waala ladka kaun hai clear karo......baaki ka scene toh clear hai bilkul....kuch samjhaane ki jarurat nahi.....................
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